Saturday, May 29, 2010

Finally Starting to effect me.....


I Will admit, the loneliness is catching up to me. But thank god I have Work, School, and my friends to distract me. Recently I've been too focused on School to notice that I've been missing someone by my side for more than three years. Now when my last relationship ended it took me a month or 2 to get over it, to the point where I wasn't thinking about it. And since then I've been good, doing me and having fun. Now this has lasted for about a while. But for some reason no matter how much I chill with my friends and focus on the job and school, I'll catch these little periods when I have free time and I would just think to myself like "Yo I have nobody". Then I'll snap back out of it, but not out of denial but outta of realization that I really don't need a girl now. I tell myself that because of the things I wanna accomplish within the next year or two. Not saying they are distractions, its just I got priority's lol. But a having a shorty its just something I would want or like to have. I just have to thank god that I'm not one of those people that need someone all the time, cause I would be setting my self up for a downfall. So for now I'm not looking for anyone but at the same time I'll keep an eye open. And it doesn't help that I'm very picky, but that's another topic lol.

And what kind of fucked up saying is that in the "Motivational" Poster?? lol