Friday, March 5, 2010

For my best interest? Or No Confidence?

My friends.....man my life would be boring with out them. lol. I love chilling with my peoples. But lately I've realized that they been trying to push me to do something. And im not gonna speculate on what that something is but i can tell u its nothing bad. Now its not that im scared to do it or I don't want to do it. I'll do it when I'm ready, when I feel like it, when I know its right. I don't like doing something or going forward with anything that's wasn't originally my idea. I guess this is why I don't usually ask for any help. See I notice what they were doing for a while, pushing ideas in my head but at first I thought it was nothing. But then it really hit me this past weekend when one of them really started to get annoying lol which got me to remember little things they said in the past. But it got me thinking like its one thing to be looking out for my best interest, and then it another to keep pushing something on me to the point where I believe that u guys have no confidence in me. Now I think I might have to pull one or two of them to the side and ask them straight up, like yo what the fuck? Or could I be putting to much into it. But I do know i could use this situation to find out what they really think of me.